what a selfish

bastard, what a selfish selfish bastard, seriously...

so tonight after an email this morning telling me that me not being able to make a decision about being friends, my going hot and cold, and fact that he thinks I don't like him sometimes is doing his head in so he thinks we should just have a professional work relationship, he texts me to say that he wants a job in NYC and when I tell him he should do it to make things easier for both of us he says 'I will. One barrier down'... so I ask him what he means and his response is "Us - sorry - I still like the idea of us. My barriers are head space and work. My point was that would solve the work barrier. But I also promised I wouldn't do the hope bit"

fucking what? seriously? have you known anything to be more selfish? i also promised but bugger that, I'll do it anyway....absolutely no clue! i am beyond angry with him....

I have no words to express just how annoyed I am, how selfish I think he is, how completely unaware he is about how is actions impact me I can't respond because I am certain I would be rude, and maybe I should be? if I was going to respond, which I am not, I think I'd like to say 'FC leave me alone until you sort out your head space'....reality is I should have said that to him a LONG time ago....

anger is good methinks, WAY easier than feeling sad or disappointed or let down!

seriously fucking selfish.....