best friends are truly

the best medicine! i am truly blessed to have some amazing friends in my life....

so tonight, after what has not been a great day....a slow start (not aided by the headache and what i think is an impending sinus infection), the sadness of last night seemingly not yet gone, and little or no desire to get out of bed, for what was my 1 yr anniversary in this job (wow, where did the time go?), a couple of meetings in town and lunch at Cafe Sydney with some of our advisors (was v nice, always is!), then a short text conversation with FC...well it all left me feeling pretty sad actually....

so watched The Wedding Planner....not sure that's a good idea when one is already feeling weepy? but then i did have a cry and promptly felt better, so perhaps it was in fact just what the Dr ordered...

then, my bff texted to see if it was too late to call...ended up having an hour long chat with her...we talked about the FC situation, her work situation, the FC situation again and honestly even though things with him are not what i want, and i am very close to telling him that other than work, i think we should in fact have some time and space away from each other (which is absolutely not what i would like to do, but think i should) i feel good...

good friends are truly the best medicine! always there, always on your side and always want you to be happy...

so thanks mrs j! love you

nite peeps xxx

ps feeling much stronger now, and certain that only way for me to be able to move on is to sever the non work contact...cringe! and yes, in doing so i am absolutely afraid that he will forget about me, and that he will read that as me shutting the door on any possibility of a future, but in fact, what it is, is me looking after Sarah, and making sure that he doesn't get what he needs while i move further away from what i need...

baby steps!