making a difference...

is something i like to do, and when i was running my own business, one of the things i loved most was the impact i had on clients - there is nothing quite so exhilarating as being with a client in a moment when they have an 'aha' moment or they realise something that could help them move forward...a real privilege

and since i started back in a 'corporate job' the opportunities for this sort of work have diminished somewhat, not disappeared, but diminished...

so imagine how lovely it was on Sunday when i went to see one of my fave shop assistants at one of my fave shops and she was gone! the girls told me she'd left and gone to another store (upstairs) so i ducked in to see her...last time before this that i saw her, she was having a difficult time making a big decision and so i talked through the options with her...

so when i see her, she gives me a big hug, we have a chat and then she tells me how grateful she is to me for having listened last time i saw her, and that she'd made the decision and she was so much happier - i was so pleased! reminded me just how much i loved my job before, and how much i will love it again when i get back there...

then, not long after that, FC came over to help out with computer stuff and i know for a fact that i would hope that any friend or any potential bf would be someone i could share this with and have them be happy for me...

nope! didn't even occur to me that i should share this with FC...i simply don't think he would understand....how could I want to be with someone who wouldn't share in my happiness about something i'm so passionate about...yes, good question indeed!

then, as something of a 'test', i checked FB, noticed my gorgeous nephew had captained his footy team for the first time and the team WON (amazing coz they usually get belted) - i was beyond excited, told FC this and all he did was look up for a moment in my direction - no 'that's great', no 'oh how old is he, what sort of footy?'...no! nothing...he said absolutely nothing...

and so both of these things have really stayed with me and i think perhaps they are a big part of why i'm feeling much better....i want someone who will support my passions and my dreams and be able to express excitement or happiness for me when something good happens in my life....

well, i'm pretty sure that FC just does not fit that bill.....

hmmm i think this says more about me than him, as for months i had myself thinking i could be in a long term relationship with him...yep, lots for me to think about!!