have contact with him and yet, whilst he is still at work, it seems unavoidable...
perhaps workshopping how to install the boundaries is what i need to work on with Sal?
although today at least we had a very honest conversation - see, he asked me for some advice/help at work (fuck, i realised when i got home that this is exactly how it all started last year...) and when i gave him some i am met with a brick wall of his silence....
he said i was aggressive - i said he was ungrateful and hard to read and i wondered why i was bothering....
ended up having a much better conversation tonight but really, i wonder, what the point is? i question if i'm only doing it because i feel i have to? or if because, and frighteningly, i have not yet given up all hope that something might be between us?
seriously? i need to let that go....even if there is something between us, and there is, he is simply not right for me...on so many levels....
so, what i need right now, is a healthy dose of realism...
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