supported...

so despite the events of last week, i do feel very supported...

all of my friends have been very present, FC has been a rock, Leah there, E solid and angry on my behalf, Leanne called yesterday after a month or so of quiet (had the nicest chat), saw Kirst yesterday for tea, Aranka has been good too even tho she's in the middle of her own work related crisis, and in an absolutely surprising way my boss has shown her unwavering support of me...

we finally had our meeting on friday and her first words were 'are you ok?', followed by 'you'll be fine, you'll get through this'....then she proceeded to share with me some of her own experiences....

so sure, i feel vulnerable and shaken (as well as shaky), but i have her support and i gotta say, that makes things a whole lot easier...

not say what i'm going thru right now is easy...on the contrary! but in years to come i expect i'll look back on it as a turning point, as a lesson that the universe knew she could offer up to me, knowing full well that i'd be supported...and yes it will be hard, aren't all the best lessons difficult and challenging? how else would you learn them?

but mostly, despite the odd moment of abject fear and paranoia, i feel supported....