stop...

is what i want to say to the thoughts running through my head

stop

go away

begone

fuck off even

i spent 3 weeks away from it all and now, seems it's all come flooding back - sure it's not as bad, it's not as intense, i'm not as upset, but still it is taking up WAY too much of my time...

so i called the clinical psych who does CBT as i think some additional support (and something different) won't hurt...

of course i'm tired, probably still a bit jet lagged so i shouldn't be too hard on myself...but this morning i feel a bit numb to be honest, and i am really not looking forward to having to see him at work - in fact i wish i never had to see him again...

anyway, naturopath appointment (incl kinesiology) this morning, then a quick cuppa with Leah, tennis this arvo and then a few errands before work tomorrow...

hmmm...yep, feeling pretty numb today! hope it passes soon...