inevitable...

i guess, that in a jet lagged induced state and with a grey old day, i might have a momentary sense of feeling sad about Nick

and sure, it's been days since i have had a shocker (thankfully)...

and it wasn't bad, but in eating turkey i realised that he told me a while ago that he'd gone healthy in one of his two daily sandwiches (yes, seriously) and switched to turkey...

and then in something of a catastrophic 'leap' i had visions of him with SF (girl who used to work at ours but left some time ago)...and sure i know him and her are friends, have been for ages, and sure he told me nothing was going on with her, but i wonder if she's the 'one' he was 'casually' sleeping with way back when?

anyway, it doesn't really matter...well that's the view i'd like to be taking...

and honestly, it doesn't! sure, there was a time when i really wanted to have a relationship with him, but really, we have very little in common - sure we have lots of little things in common, but i don't think our 'plans' for life were aligned...and i suspect, although he never said it, he wanted kids and perhaps had a feeling it was too late for me?

on the plus side, i bought the most gorgeous white gold and diamond butterfly bracelet today and i flirted shamelessly with both of the sales guys (altho one of them started it)....was nice to feel attractive, and funny and i also bought a beautiful amethyst ring with other stones - yes yes, i know i already have 2 amethysts (only one of which i wear on a regular basis) but this was $299 down from $1,200 so really, i couldn't exactly leave it in the store?

funny, i saw they had a sale on yesterday when i walked by but it was closed, so went there today and the first thing i saw in the window was the butterfly bracelet which just caught my eye - no sooner than it was on my wrist, it simply didn't come off! guess you could say it was meant to be...

i did a lot of walking today, including a run/walk round Central Park in the rain (not how i envisioned my first ever exercise outing here)....luckily it was a hair wash day so nothing lost...

my plan is to try and exercise 5 days a week whilst i'm here, and sure exercise sounds like something you'd do at home not on holidays, but i love the feeling after exercise and given my mental health before i left, i think it'll help keep me in the happiest holiday frame of mind...not to mention, i really need to lose some weight! i'm a 10 over here when most people seem to be a 4 or a 6 :-( and it's not like i feel fat, but i could def do with losing 5 - 7 kgs....

haven't written a single word yet, but i guess i have plenty of time (maybe!) to get around to that...and there's always NaNoWriMo in November if i don't finish it here...funny, even though i haven't felt much like writing yet, the set up isn't ideal! Fred, one of the concierges here, told me i need to relocate to a Best Western in order to write as one needs to be unhappy and it's hard to be unhappy at the Dream...ha! he also said i should check out the Dream downtown which is new...maybe I'll change it up and stay somewhere different for my 2nd stint in the city?

big decision! probably the biggest decision i'm gonna have to make...

so, forward plans as follows:

 - tomorrow: hopefully seeing Phil and/or Anita & Sam
 - 9th: the long awaited trip to Woodbury Commons (as if I need to spend more money)
 - 10th: Enemy of the People with Anita (during day I'm thinking something cultural!)
 - 11th: Grace in the evening (daytime, not sure...)
 - 12th - 16th: heading upstate to visit my dear friends P.A. and Elliot
 - 17th: matinee performance of Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf
 - 18th: ballet with Anita
 - 19th - 21st: cousin Alison in NYC (very excited)
 - 22nd: unsure
 - 23rd: Heiress in the evening
 - 24th: no doubt packing and saying au revoir to my friends

yep, not sure when i'm going to be fitting any writing into that schedule and of course I haven't mentioned going to Macy's, Saks, Gugg, MOMA and a handful of other places...hmmmm, oh and I haven't even made my appointment at the Red Door yet!

maybe 3 weeks isn't actually enough? maybe, maybe i should move here so i have heaps of time to check it all out?

and amongst all that probably won't get to a live Yankees game, which is kinda sad but at least i'll get to see it on tv (if i'm in)...

anyway, having fun so far - haven't given work a 2nd thought really, and will do my darnedest not to...i'm on vacation after all! nite x