to go by, i really would have gotten over him soooo much quicker if we didn't work together...
see, he wasn't there and it was good! and don't get me wrong, i don't hate him, i enjoy working with him, and he's not a bad person, but seeing him there does remind me...
so was just fab to have a day without him there, and i realised just how much better it was...we've had no contact since his non committal stupid text on saturday morning...
shame he never could express what he wanted or how he felt - and even when i thought i was madly in love with him i found it hard to believe i could be so into someone who couldn't do the emotional side of things...and sure, my friends keep telling me that a lot of men can't, but at least being with someone who wants to be with me and will not keep running away, is better than what i had with him...
so even though today was shit from a health perspective (sore throat, headache, fuzzy head, congested head and suspected lurgy onset), emotionally it was good...
yay, i think i am now well and truly on the road - and i'm not referring to the road to Damascus - that sounds cool even though i am certain it has somewhat religious connotations...nope, the road to recovery, the road to a brighter future, the road to a relationship that will be what i want....the road to meeting my mr right....
seems a long time since i found myself thinking about this without putting FC into the frame, but tonight as I drove Georgie home (did i mention how much i LOVE her?) i really did find myself dreaming about a someone that wasn't him
finally! finally we have progress...and not progress like walking on the moon progress, but progress all the same :)
sooo let's see how i go after a meeting with him tomorrow....
i am determined (even though i don't want him to see me as just some work colleague) to try and see him as just some work colleague...!
so, let's hope the feelings of today last well into tomorrow, and beyond....
nite peeps x
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