how is it possible

that I still miss him? after everything? especially his appalling behaviour today.......

i'm either stupid or too forgiving or I really really liked him?

or maybe I just really wanted it to work coz I'm over being single....:-(

surely though being happily single is better than being with someone who hardly ever made me feel good about myself, or special and really would be settling in the worst possible way?

and sure, he ticks some of the boxes, but not nearly enough.....

and I do deserve the best....wonder if I say that enough times will I start to really believe it?

hmmm pondering...