hopeful....

is really how i'd like to start this next week....

hopeful that soon the black cloud that i seem to be walking under, lifts and becomes grey (at least initially) and then suddenly is blown away entirely and replaced with only brilliant and warm sunlight...

hopeful that the hope that i have that my mr right will turn up, wasn't a momentary passing feeling, and that, as each day passes, that hope will grow and eventually i will believe that i am worth it...

hope that eventually the pain of the ending of things with FC will pass, and in time i will be able to either be friends with him or look back and just chalk it up to experience..and yes, it's definitely been an experience - learned a lot, hurt a lot but the KEY message from all of this (which my good friend Leah pointed out to me again this week) was that being with FC made me realise that i am ready to be with someone...and sure that might sound kinda silly, but before him, I actually wasn't sure i was ready...

well, no more! i am definitely ready...so universe if you are listening, then i am ready...ready to meet a man who will be my mr right, and who's miss right i'll be to him....someone who will be ready for the sort of relationship i want, ready to share his life with me, emotionally and actually available, intelligent, caring, compassionate, kind, passionate, successful, thoughtful, loving, funny, and generally think i am fabulous...

yes universe, i am ready, and sure, possibly i haven't had my eyes open - but i promise to try and look forward not back....

so, hopeful is how i'd like to start this week

happy week ahead peeps x