awake

loving Awake, pity they only made one season - how is that possible? it's fucking fantastic...

anyway, the main character just said to his therapist 'explain to me exactly what's so great about seeing reality for what it is'....

he's so so so right! and maybe that's what's going on for me right now - the 'reality' of my life isn't as good as the fantasy i've created in my head or my dreams for how i'd like it to be...yep, i'm pretty sure this is an existential crisis....

not liking it, but no doubt as time passes and i look back on this time, i'll realise why i had to go through it...

on another note, i told my parents about what's going on for me right now....not easy, but had to be done! big sigh of relief....

so back to Awake, maybe this is why sometimes i find myself wanting to sleep which is basically my way of running away from the pain...ironically i can't sleep without sleeping tablets right now...

anyway, amazing show - never really seen anything with Jason Isaacs in it, but he's great - great show, great concept, why did they stop making it?

that's it for now...