inevitably...

i had something of a minor regression today, but not one i intend to beat myself up about, nor spend too much time analysing...

bottom line is i was knackered and sad after hearing something at work that really got to me, as well as some sad personal news (a very good friend of my sister's has bladder cancer...such a lovely bloke, pretty sad about it myself as they are, basically, family) and i just found myself curled up on the couch feeling very lonely and wanting to reach out to him...

sure, it took me hours before i finally did, and what i expected was that he would either not respond, or run away (you know, having observed him 'move away' whenever i move towards), but no...instead he asked me if i'd been drinking (ha!) and then promptly invited me over to dinner tomorrow night (and he is going to cook)...

will wonders ever cease?

and he has downloaded some 'samples' of new tv shows for us to watch, and really? i'm supposed to think we are not having a relationship....

how is that possible? and sure if i hadn't texted him tonight, he may not have texted me but that would be the first night in AGES that we hadn't spoken...

funny, last week i really felt the need for some space and some 'me' time and tonight, when it looked likely, i really wanted to reach out to him...

hmmm unsure what to make of that?

so a sleep in (i'm working from home tomorrow so don't have to battle the harbour traffic), a run if the sun is shining, then a stack of stuff to do, a women's networking lunch and dinner with FC to look forward to....nice!

happy tuesday nite folks
xx