is where i'm trying really hard to be, seems that jumping ahead and creating expectations really does detract from that 'in the moment enjoyment', and so that's what i'm trying out right now....
and sure i've done this before, it's something i had to learn to do with counselling and coaching clients - in fact i observed that once i let go of needing to know or feel like i had to know 'what was next' or what question to ask next, that by simply being in the moment made me a better coach, a better counsellor...who knew? well, maybe i can apply that learning to things with FC, and in fact, not just FC, but generally
surely, it's a good way of trying to live life?
and last night, for a minute, i was so in the moment that i completely forgot where and who i was with and a consequently he saw a glimpse of my childish self (i love her BTW so it's not an issue)....he laughed for minutes, and even more so when i said to him 'hmmm guess i forgot where i was', he just smiled...
so maybe just maybe this being in the moment, and not analysing where things are going to go, maybe it alleviates some of the pressure to 'do' anything and instead to focus on 'being'...
gonna ponder on that today....
and for the record, when i got home last night and when i woke up this morning i realised that even though i am very happy with where things are at between us right now, i also realised that i am starting to really like him....
eek!
ps what i realised though is that previously i would go into all sorts of analysis about why that was good, or why that was bad, but this morning as i've observed the thoughts and feelings coursing through my body, i have just tried to be with it...and you know what? i have found myself smiling a lot
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